Lord, if you kept a record of our sins, who, O Lord, could ever survive? But you offer forgiveness, that we might learn to fear you.-Psalm 130:3,4
When I reflect on my moral failures, there have been times I have wondered what God thinks of me and feared that God is disappointed with me. I remember as a young child reading over the ten commandments. I was certain that I would never go against any of them;I would never lie, I would never still, I would never worship any other God, I would never commit murder or adultery. I was certain that I would never make any of those mistakes. God knew all along His word says, “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;” Romans 3:23 He knows the events that will unfold today, tomorrow, next year, and they never take Him off guard. He created our “inmost being” -Psalm 139:13 He knows our hearts better than we do. We cannot take God by surprise.
Brennan Manning said “He is not moody or capricious; He knows no seasons of change. He has a single relentless stance toward us: He loves us. He is the only God man has ever heard of who loves sinners. False gods—the gods of human manufacturing—despise sinners, but the Father of Jesus loves all, no matter what they do. But of course, this almost too incredible for us to accept.”
I am thankful to know that God is capable of laughing at our mistakes, smiling when we bumble down the wrong path, and overlooking our misguided attempts to live the “good life” as we try to follow Him well.
Know that God is never disappointed with you. But I think God may often get disappointed for us. He wants the best for us. He wants our lives to be full of joy, abundance, and fulfillment—but He also recognizes that we often choose paths that lead us away from those gifts. Remember that Jesus came for the spiritually weak, for broken people who live imperfect lives, for those who don’t have it all together, for the serial failures and habitual mess-ups.-1 John 1:7
When you ask God to forgive you for something wrong you have done, ACCEPT His forgiveness! Stop refusing to accept God’s forgiveness,when you refuse it you are usurping God’s position of pardoning your sinful behaviors. Believe that God desires to forgive you. By choosing not to you are telling God that His loving mercy is not powerful enough to forgive you.You are limiting God when you fear God is not able to forgive you.
There is an old proverb that says “Who draws near to me an inch, I will draw near to him a mile; and who so walks to meet me, I will leap to meet him!”
God is not disappointed with you. Learn to see God as a loving, heavenly parent who longs to embrace you and to assure you of complete forgiveness, mercy, and love when you seek it.
“Come near to God, and he will come near to you.”-James 4:8